Well everyone, many of you have probably seen or heard already. . . I'm pregnant!!
It's crazy soon I know. After giving birth to Luke my midwife was going over somethings before she signed my release from the hospital and she told me it would be healthiest to wait at least a year before getting pregnant again. I wasn't very obedient. Luke wasn't a year old when I got pregnant and he'll only be 1 . 5 years old when the new baby comes. Oops. I couldn't help it. I started to feel like I really wanted to have another baby and I really wanted Luke to have a sibling close to his age. I got really excited and as some of you have seen before in my life... that feeling usually causes me to make a decision about something. So I told Tyler I wanted to try to get pregnant.
I had been feeling this way a for a while but I'd been pushing it away because I didn't want to rush into having a second baby too fast. I was trying to be obedient to my midwife's advice. I tried to fish around and see what Tyler was feeling and when he wasn't trying to convince himself that he didn't want to have anymore kids he had to admit that he had started to feel like he wanted Luke to have a sibling close to his age. Mind you, every time he admitted this he would follow up shortly after with "actually, he can just have a puppy to play with".
Finally I got up the guts to tell Tyler I wasn't just thinking about wanting to have another baby, I actually wanted to start trying. He agreed and 2 months later I was late. The thing is, I didn't want to take a pregnancy test yet because my periods hadn't really started to be regular yet because I was breastfeeding Luke.
When I was a week or so late I couldn't take it anymore and I took a pregnancy test. It was a solid positive. I was just reading a friend's blog who has also just announced that she's pregnant and she said her test was very light so that means "a little bit pregnant". Well in that case I was a lot a bit pregnant!
When I took a pregnancy test for Luke the test was very faint and Tyler refused to believe it was positive. This one left no room for him to doubt!
It's ironic because I had been so excited and anxious to get pregnant but as soon as I saw the positive test it suddenly hit me that it meant it was actually about to happen. I freaked out a little and was scared to be able to handle 2 kids. I still sometimes wonder how I'm supposed to be able to give them both all the love and attention they need when Luke is basically all I have to take care of all day. I know they say you don't split your love in half you're heart grows to make more love for the new baby (cheesy, but still...). It is just hard to comprehend at this point in time. I love Luke so much and don't want him to feel less loved and I don't ever want to play favorites. It is just a little overwhelming to think about sometimes.
So there you have it. I guess I was feeling some inspiration to not wait the full year because apparently we have another baby anxiously waiting to join our family. Ever time I see a new baby my heart melts and I can't wait for the beginning/middle of September to see and hold my new little baby. I'm due September 10th and so I'm 17 weeks along. We just wanted to keep it to ourselves for a bit and then when we told anyone we only told immediate family at first. I'm showing a little though so the cat's out of the bag and it seems silly not to tell people I'm pregnant.
I've been going to a different midwife (because we moved farther from the midwife I went to with Luke) in Ogden and the Women's Center where she works is really fancy. I guess they just figure they have the technology why not use it because they do an ultrasound every visit. They also record them all onto a DVD for me! I love it! So every 4 weeks I get to see my little baby moving and growing, plus I can bring the dvd home to show our parents.
At my last appointment my midwife said that if the baby was cooperating we would possibly be able to tell the gender. . . we think we got a couple good looks at the area and. . .